Current mood: contemplative
Category: Life
I went to my little coffee nook today to get out of the house and was reading a little newspaper about spiritual awareness, etc. As I was sitting in the chair with the sun beaming in my back (and the back of my head) providing a contrast to the cold temperatures, I started contemplating success and satisfaction after reading about a seminar discussing increasing wealth in your life. The seminar doesn’t focus on financial wealth only but financial, emotional and spiritual wealth as well.
Needless to say, the seminar appeals to me. Before being laid off, I realized there was a huge discord between the measure of my success (calculated by my salary and position) and my satisfaction (happiness with my current situation). Although I had a salary and position that was beyond my wildest imagination as little as six years ago, I was hugely dissatisfied with both. The funniest thing is that the last time I remember being satisfied with my job, I was 22-24 and struggling. However, I was the de facto night manager of a 770-room convention hotel. When problems arose overnight, I was the final authority on how to handle the situation and never had to resort to calling the manager on duty to resolve any issues. Problems included handling middle of the night SNAFUs of musician check-ins, informing unfortunate guests that the hotel was sold-out and I would need to send them to a ratty hotel nearby that was NOWHERE near comparable and even handling an employee medical emergency. I derived much satisfaction from that job.
One other time that I TRULY was satisfied, was in high school when I made a prom outfit for a friend of mine who didn’t have the traditional hourglass figure (who does?). I searched and searched and searched until I finally found a pattern that wasn’t designed for prom and transformed the simple outfit into a stunning prom outfit that everyone commented on. Her prom outfit looked better than mine by far but I was as proud as a peacock seeing everyone oooh and ahhh over my friend’s outfit.
Soooo does this mean I should be a fashion designer/night manager of a hotel in order to find satisfaction? I plan to go to the seminar (it’s free after all) and see what comes of it.
To take a line from a part of a long-range horoscope for me, “Ultimately, nothing satisfies like satisfaction”. This will be maybe my first step in my journey in search of satisfaction…
Currently listening:
Corinne Bailey Rae
By Corinne Bailey Rae
Release date: 20 June, 2006