Current mood: contemplative
I spend an inordinate amount of time alone. I usually enjoy my own company, sometimes more so than the company of others. Then there are those other times where alone all of a sudden becomes lonely.
Today I attended a Catholic church (I’m not Catholic by the way) because a classmate was nice enough to invite me. There was a celebration for Saint Joseph – a feast as a matter of fact. I came alone and only knew the person who invited me. She unfortunately had to work the whole time so there was no hand-holding. However, there was a family that came together. For one moment, I was adopted and had a family that I was a part of as opposed to being there totally alone. That was definitely one time that I enjoyed the company of others. In addition, I was the only black person there in a midst of Italian families and many people were solicitous, welcoming and gracious. It’s times like these that restore my faith in people’s abilities to transcend differences and just be.
I still find myself lonely from time to time but whenever it becomes very intense, an experience like today’s comes along and makes the going just a little easier.
Currently listening:
Blink the Brightest
By Tracy Bonham
Release date: 21 June, 2005