Mind Body Disconnection

Category: Sports

I’m not athletically inclined at all! In school, I was always smart (and painfully skinny) so I naturally shied away from anything vaguely resembling sports. However, after having vacationed in Miami a couple of times and Jamaica once, I realized I needed to learn how to swim. I gave it a couple of tries and always ended up being so afraid of drowning that I proceeded to do just that – almost drown.

In 2004, I finally signed up for private lessons and saw progress! I was able to get in the water, follow directions and swim. I wasn’t ready for Olympic competition but I was out there doing my little thing. Then my instructor was fired/dismissed/no longer worked at the place where I was learning to swim. I lost my momentum and enthusiasm and soon stopped the classes.

Tonight, I just went to my first class and find that the zen or mind-body connection that I once had is now gone. I despair not because I plan to persevere until I once again am zipping about confidently in the water.

After all, I have some ocean swimming to do…

Tune in later for my swimming adventures.

I’m So Excited…

Current mood:  optimistic

Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

I am going to start an Italian class tomorrow! Hopefully my learning capacity hasn’t diminished. I want to be able to speak legible Italian by June when I go on vacation, possibly to Italy. I can speak decent French and I hope the French experience will translate into ease of learning for my Italian. If you speak Italian, please check my progress from time to time. Right now, all I can say is “grazie” and my favorite – “ciao bello”.

If It Looks Good, Is It?

Current mood:  confused

Category: Romance and Relationships

This primarily is to the guys. If it looks good, is it really good? I’ve had the dubious fortune of meeting some incredibly different guys (foreign, self-employed, non-9-5ers, etc.). They were attracted to me because of my looks (on the photographed days). However, I always felt like a little prize or better yet a “man-doll”. We had relationships that ranged between none and uh, none. They were rather content to take me out and spend money but the things that make a relationship were elusive at best. I have a lot churning in my head but rarely did I have anyone attempt to engage me on that level. I felt like a cardboard cut-out of myself.

My question to you today is this – if it’s good how do you ascertain the fact?

One really bad thing about this is that if I had insisted on this chain of events upfront and in the beginning, then I’m a Gold-Digger (though it’s true I’ve not been involved with many broke people)…