Current mood: contemplative
I’m trying to be strong. I’ve lost my job and my boyfriend all within a week of each other. I already had another issue that I was dealing with in October where I lost something else. I’m trying to keep my spirits up about the situation and it’s not as bad as it could be. I have been able to pay my utilities in advance so I have credits on my power, gas and cell phone bills (yes, cell phone is a utitility!!!). With my next check, I plan to pay my rent in advance for December and January. By my estimations, I should (hopefully) be okay with living expenses from my last check and unemployment until I figure out what I want to do with my life. I have so much chaos and turmoil right now that I don’t really know what I want, except to find a way to study in Geneva for two months. With all of my free time to think, I’m now able to go back to some of my dreams that I ignored because I was too distracted.
I am fortunate in that I have a class that I enjoy and look forward to attending. The other class is a BORE but it does offer some interesting insight when I’m fully alert to absorb it. I feel that my life right now is about exploring possibilities and school is the perfect place for me to explore those possibilities and also expand my horizons further (they’re pretty expansive as it is). I have no idea what the outcome of all these changes will be but I am trying to keep a positive, optimistic outlook.
Petitefreespirit isn’t as free-spirited as she generally is but hopefully she’ll make a comeback soon. I miss having a twinkle in my eye that’s not a tear and having a smile on my face that starts in my heart.
Currently listening:
Corinne Bailey Rae
By Corinne Bailey Rae
Release date: 20 June, 2006